[enam belas] selalu ada yang terakhir

If there is a beginning, then there will be an end

Tribute to my beloved mom and grandma

Selamat tahun baru Imlek ya untuk teman-teman yang merayakan xD

Mau ngomongin apapun, semua yang berawal pasti akan berakhir. Klise.
Everything with a start will end.

Eight years four months, 2012 was the last year I celebrated Chinese New Year with my mom. The last year that she was still strong enough to walk, to sit, to get in a car. 

Almost seven months, 2019 was the last year I celebrated Chinese New Year with my grandma. The last year that she was still strong enough to sit, to smile, not to stand, a little bit to talk, a very small sound came up from her mouth.

These two women had brought so many things in my life.

Those two years, the years, no one knew before, would be the last time to celebrate Chinese New Year with them.

I still remember the new shirt my mom wore that day, a simple red shirt. Red, the symbol of happiness. She was healthy that morning, excited to visit the family. No one knew, six months after that she completed her journey in this world. To be honest, nothing is worse than losing someone you love but at that time, one thing we can be thankful for was that she had ended the suffering from cancer. 

I also still remember my grandma's smile on the Chinese New Year last year. She was very excited that day, full of smile, had the strength to talk with people (even with a very small sound), sat almost half-day (a thing that she was not able to do a few months before). She even remembered that she had to give the children the 'angpao'. No one knew, four months later she finished her journey in this world. At that time, the thing we can be thankful for was that she did not suffer from the application of NGT tube (she used this for two months). 

You know what, I learned a lot from all these things. Everything has an end. Everything will end, definitely.

Before the time comes, make sure to spend it well. 

I am quite grateful and thankful, I am not saying I did not do mistakes. I did, a lot. The thing is that I had done what I should have done. Life must go on.

I miss you so much, I love you always, mom and grandma

I wish you always be happy wherever you are now

See you in the next chapter of life

See ya at [tujuh belas]

Cheers,

Em 🙆