[empat puluh sembilan] see you when I see you again, Belfast!

After 2 years and a half, it's finally time to go home. Honestly, I never expect that it will be this sad, really. I would say I've been through a lot of come and go in this life. And I can even say I've gone through the hardest one, losing my loved ones. And that's why it comes to me that there would never be something as sad as those things. However, here I am, really sad of leaving Belfast with all the memories there. 

Ya jadi begitulah,

Setelah melihat-lihat kembali, wah kok ini levelnya sudah mirip kedukaan yah hahaaa ya mungkin masih 1 2 level di bawahnya. Tapi, getting your tears down on airplane adalah sesuatu buat saya wkkkww atau waktu liat postingan terus berkacaa-kaca hhhaa sepertinya baru kali ini. Anyway, hal yang mirip pernah juga terjadi waktu saya selesai KKN beberapa tahun lalu. Saya pun sepertinya menyadari kalau living together with someone you never or barely know before can bring some kind of attachment of you to them. Waktu KKN, saya tinggal dengan 9 teman yang sebelumnya tidak pernah saya kenal selama 2 bulan. Dan pada akhir masa KKN itu, rasanya memang sedih sekali. A key point that I think made me feeling so sad is because I don't know if I will ever experience the same thing again in the future. KKN tidak dua kali, kalau ke Belfast? Who knows, tapi kecil kemungkinan bisa ke sana lagi. S2 juga tidak dua kali yaa wkkwkw So, mungkin begitu ya. Really, it was so so sad at that/this moment.

One thing, special mention for Kak Qoni, my room mate. Apa-apa selalu sama-sama. I think you are the most reason that made this leaving day so difficult. Apalagi 1 tahun terakhir yang betul-betul sama-sama setiap hari. Those things that I might never experience again. Thank you for everything Kak, I know you'll be just fine, same as me. We'll be okay and let's see each other again in the future :)

Take things aside, I realise that attachment is really human's weakness. Masih melekat. That's why it's so sad when you need to let something go, apalagi kalau banyak memori indah di situ. It's okay, the process is on going, things are still improving.

All in all, thank you Belfast, you are not only a place now, you're home. 

I'll see you when I see you again :)

Hope to come back one day.

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Cheers,

at quarantine, Em 🙆