Once one said to the Teacher "I want happiness" and the Teacher answered "Firstly, remove 'want' and then remove 'I', and all you got is 'happiness'."
This post will be one personal advice for myself, as quite lot of things happened lately, so yaaa
Being a thinker may be good, but think too much might not be so good (obviously bring no good at all). It was the thinking too much that I mostly do lately, which unconsciously (but realizing after that) uplift the I in me, the ego, the more familiar word.
Before or after doing one thing, or, before or after saying one thing, and then makes me think 'what people will think about this, about me', 'did I just make a mess because of what I did or what I said?', 'people will notice me because of this (both good and bad ways)', 'why did I think this way?', 'is it real or do I have hidden agenda?' and some other things similar to these. Further, these thoughts might be appear to justify or to clarify or to confirm, sometimes just can't differentiate. Just bingung sometimes.
It might be some forms of over worried or fear? Afraid of me thinking this or that, afraid of people thinking this or that, and another one is afraid if what I do is not a sincere one, like for real? or just to feed the me inside. Have no idea, but one thing that I know, I notice more 'me' in that way of thinking, which is a little bit disturbing. So, maybe it was not only fear or worry, it is most likely because too much I, me, or myself in that thoughts.
Still trying to figure out wkwkwk ya sudah, you are not (I am not) the center of the world, maybe that's it.
It's okay. It's okay.
See you at [delapan puluh] then,
Cheers,
Em 🙆
