You know what, I think that I live in a silent dream life, not only me, I'm sure many people out there are doing the same thing, maybe you as well?
I do have lots of dreams and plans inside my head, but sometimes I don't really feel to say it out loud.
And sometimes, getting a compliment of having a good big dream feels like annoying a little bit, at least for myself, I think.
What I prefer is let it sound as loud as it comes true. Let it stay inside, let it grow inside, let me work so hard to make it sound.
If it's not meant to be, it will just stay inside, in my head, as a very beautiful dream one can dream of.
On the other hand, sometimes I feel like I want to share all of those dreams and plans and exciting stories going around my head.
Yet, that someone hasn't come, on the way, maybe.
However, here comes a question, would it be the same life I live without the silent dream life?
Or, would it be something new that I haven't think about before? As if when you think that it is either A and B, and you don't really consider that you still have C, D, etc. that you never take into account before.
At some point, when I think of something, think and think, it always comes to one end root, maybe it's all about time. Still using 'maybe', as you know, everything evolve, the way we think also evolve, so our thoughts today might be different to our thoughts few years later.
It's all about time, maybe I am today not feeling too comfortable to share what I dream of or feeling a bit annoyed for being the center of attention (getting compliments, etc.) which might also be part of my ego that need to be fulfilled. But, maybe as time goes by, I can compensate those things, find a better way to accept and process it in myself. To find an alternative and wiser way in accepting things. Hopefully :)
This post is totally random things written down hahahaa
See you at [enam puluh] yaaw,
Cheers,
Em🙆
